Too Hungry To Think Of A Proper Title

Kind of proud of myself, yesterday I only ate a few bites of grilled chicken and less than a half a cup of steamed rice and then 4 bites of cheesecake because my mother wouldn’t stop hounding me about not eating enough. I’m absolutely starving at the moment, so I’m going to have a can of low-cal chicken noodle soup and maybe some crackers. I feel like absolute ass, though. I really need to start taking vitamins again, but they always make me nauseous to the point of vomiting.

Stats

5′ 6″

109.2

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Feeling Guilty…

I feel like I ate too much today even though I’m not that far over my limit. Nevertheless, I feel even more fat and disgusting than normal, so I have decided to put myself through the shitstorm of burning some extra calories while the rest of my household sleeps in their coffins. Tonight’s workout entails:

  • 200 squats
  • 100 push ups

Stats

5′ 6″

110 lbs

Family Rant

Getting really fucking sick of my sister (Isabelle, 20) acting like she’s my mother. All she does is bitch and bitch at me about every little thing.

“Grace, you need to fucking eat!”

“Get that stupid ring out of your nose!”

“Quit being so goddamn melodramatic!”

It’s not even like she’s doing it because she cares, she’s doing it so she can feel like she’s in charge. She acts like she’s so fucking perfect at everything. Mom fucking loves Isabelle because their like carbon copies of each other. I hate them both so much. Not even in the “I say I hate you, but at the end of the day, your family and I love you” way. I hate them with every fiber of my being. My mother was, without a doubt, my biggest motivation for every single one of my suicide attempts. She’s such a heartless, hateful, bitch that my friend, Oliver, actually calls her Egg Donor

Stats

5′ 6″

110.2 lbs

My first blog

This is the post excerpt.

Hello, anorexics/bulimics/etc. of the internet! This is not only my first post but my first blog. I’ve tried journals and diaries and all that before, but I could never really stick with them. This probably won’t last long, but I’m going to try to keep it going as long as I can.

Right now, I’m on day six of the Healthy Skinny Girl Diet (HSGD) and it’s going surprisingly well, lunch today was at Tijuana Flats and depressingly calorie-filled, but with mommy dearest throwing a tantrum over every little thing, I figured refusing to eat wouldn’t have ended well. Even still, as long as I’m careful with dinner and exercise a little, I’ll still be under my daily limit.

Stats

5′ 6″

110.2 lbs

hsgd